My mother and sister think it's him being a coward and taking the spineless way out of saying he doesn't want to be with me. A part of me thinks that they're right. The thing is that he's never lied. My mom said, "There's always a first time."
I'm so angry.. Why punish himself over this? I never met the fucker's wife, and I no longer keep in touch with them or anyone they know.
The thing that hurt the most was when Ryan said that he "wasn't to make contact with anything that's touched him". What the hell..? I got faced the damage head on, have no proof to back up the claims, and you can't talk to me? He said that we'd be able to talk in two years. That's when it ends. My heart has been stomped on, and I'm still at the edge of my seat.
"I'm not to make contact with anything that's touched him."
I would paint, but I feel so devoid of any emotion. It's all questions. I sobbed once for a half hour, and then it was back to the tears just falling effortlessly from my eyes. I don't even cry anymore. I just leak like a broken tap. I just feel empty.











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Lara
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[link] Commissions
~ArtSchoolSubRosa my comic.
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[link] Commissions
~ArtSchoolSubRosa my comic.
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I won't suffer, be broken, get tired or wasted,
Surrender to nothing, I'll give up what I,
Started and stop this, from end to beginning.
A new day is calling, and I am finally free.
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I won't suffer, be broken, get tired or wasted,
Surrender to nothing, I'll give up what I,
Started and stop this, from end to beginning.
A new day is calling, and I am finally free.
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